Conflict changing to taking a step


Having received hexagram 6, changing to hexagram 10, from the I Ching

the hands inside my neck grip tightly
a moth flickers in my stomach
and there is something tight just under my belly’s skin

someone is rushing me forward, through and away and don’t stop to look
someone is covering my eyes and whispering stay perfectly still

Today I met a man who recorded the silence in a prison cell at the National Museum of Justice. I remembered Palden Gyatso. He took refuge in his Buddhist practice as days and years of torture and imprisonment rolled by. 

Outside my window the small white blossoms on the weeping pear tree are giving way to silver green leaves. A small robin disappears into its tangled branches.

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